Max Comfy:
posted 2018-08-20 18:19:54

While everyone else was working like suckers, I was relaxing in my jammies on this beautiful Monday.

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the best of fschmidt:
posted 2018-08-20 15:25:56

"The mosque is an outlet to talk to people who aren't modern day assholes."

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posted 2018-08-19 20:53:53

Time will tell, but perhaps my latest career setback will turn out to be a blessing in disguise. Now I am free to explore other jobs and locations without being tied down to a career that I have loathed from day one.

Next month, I will be going on another trip out west. It'll cost me over a grand, but that's still cheaper than moving out there and finding out that I don't like my new location.

Honestly, I don't know how much time I will spend in the mid-sized city that I'll be flying into. I'm more interested in checking out the smaller cities with fewer than 20,000 people. Those are my kinds of cities. Traffic is more tolerable, life moves at a more laid-back pace, the cost-of-living is usually lower, the people are generally friendlier, and there's a better chance of meeting a halfway decent woman (upwards of 5-10% as opposed to 0-1% in larger cities and suburbs). Of course, the biggest concern is scarce employment opportunities, but there seems to be a fair amount of job openings in the ~20k city that I'm considering.

I have a lot planned over the next two months, but after that, I have nothing to look forward to besides six months of winter. Someone put me out of my misery if I'm stuck here after mid-October!

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posted 2018-08-19 20:30:08

I feel like if I could just ugly cry I would feel a huge relief but I canít cry! I havenít been able to cry in 3 months.

I signed up for an online therapist but I donít think they are effective.... well, at least this one isnít. He just keeps dragging on and not helping me unfuck myself.

So... my work friend occasionally texts me these songs with lyrics like ďtouch itĒ or ďI need a lover...Ē what am I supposed to think? I just play dumb ... I donít want to assume anything but he is gay. Why do this? Damn, is he fucking with me?

Yes, good song, bro.

I saw my crush today and just wanted to wrap my arms around him...I just want to hug him. I know Iím weird... I do feel a spark when Iím near him but my anxieties wonít let me live outside of my head. I mean, I know I canít help how I feel.... but acting on my feelings would be dumb.

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king M.E.: Temp boi
posted 2018-08-17 17:42:43

So there was this temp busting his ass and doing my job and his trying to get hired on...I let him. I give zero fucks at this job and I know how this shit company is. Yeah, they let him go this week. They hired 2 people over him...which I donít understand at fucking all, he was infinitely better at this job then them and wanted it more but this stupid company prefers to hire people they like over people who are capable of doing the job.

But yeah told you so kid.

And now I have to actually do work, ugh

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posted 2018-08-16 17:16:33

holy shit. I really need to stop looking people up on instagram.

Everybody I talk to pretends to be above this pettiness and I'm just like...sigh. This is usually a sign that I need to get back to work and stop worrying about other people.

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posted 2018-08-15 21:21:29

what is this feeling i get? like im missing a thing, like there is so much out there to do, so much i'm capable of, and i feel like im always just squandering it. like its just out of my reach. like i'm holding myself back from reaching my full potential.

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posted 2018-08-15 17:56:53

Iím going back to Michigan for my last year of classes in a couple days. And I will likely never live in my hometown for any significant amount of time again. Thatís like one more painful step into real adulthood.

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Cage: Jealous
posted 2018-08-15 16:08:36

I am so envious of others' success. I work my ass of, sacrifice for my career, always keep an eye open for opportunities....yet I never seem to find them. When I do, the door is so often slammed in my face. I see other continually succeed, get raises, move up, do better. They are climbing to the top of the mountain while I am running on a flat track. Around and around I go. I turn corners every now and again but it always leads me back to where I was before. The tires on my car have been spinning loose for nearly 2 years now. There is so much smoke coming off of them I can barely see in front of me. All I want to do is gain traction and go forward but my wheels continue to spin. They've been spinning for so long I fear I'm running out of rubber and they will burst soon. God only knows what will happen after that.

I am so sick of trying and not succeeding. I am so jealous of everyone's success. I just want a small bit of it for myself. I feel like crying when I think about it.

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posted 2018-08-13 05:11:37

Last week little one cried when I mentioned he was starting kindergarten I hugged him and cried too then I mentioned that he was a big boy now and it was time for him to go to school and to prepare to become a strong independent man.

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