posted 2018-01-21 19:37:23

my wife told me to cut back on the edgy posts this year.

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posted 2018-01-20 23:21:11

My father is extremely sick. I don't have much time left with him.

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M.e. 5000: Fire M.E.
posted 2018-01-19 13:32:12

I applied for another position in the company. But Id be happy if they just fired me. Hate my current position. I got savings and 3 weeks worth of vacation I get if they fire me. Plus unemployment. Im good.

I literally do like an hour of work and dick around on YouTube the rest of the day.

If it wasnt for the stupid tv I bought Id probably quit.

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posted 2018-01-19 06:34:16

"Where do you see yourself in five years?"

It's everyone's favorite job interview question that very few people answer honestly. Given life's unpredictability, who can really know for sure where they will be 5 or 10 years down the road?

For me, this cliched question has taken on a much greater significance recently, as I am currently approaching a major crossroad in life. I have mostly eschewed the trappings of the so-called American Dream and am probably one or two setbacks away from checking out of society altogether.

Before I cash in my chips and live out the second-half of my life on the outskirts of civilization, I am going to make one last-ditch attempt to survive/thrive in modern society. As mentioned before, my immediate plans are to relocate to the other side of the country in the springtime and see if I can resurrect my life there. It shouldn't be too difficult to stay afloat financially so long as I am able to secure full-time work. The cost-of-living in my desired location is ridiculously low, with plenty of studio apartments going for < $500/month and everyday living expenses being more affordable than my current location. Furthermore, the abundance of outdoor recreational opportunities and consistently sunny skies will allow me to live a more fulfilling life, even if I only end up living in my new location for 1-2 years.

My next update will probably be a month or two from now, as I don't have anything more to write at this time. So long for now.

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posted 2018-01-17 01:27:12

so I had my first therapy appointment today in many years.

I made it because I got held back a year in nursing school. Not because I was filling a class- I wasn't doigwell, but I passed them- but because my clinical reports and write ups were not in order.

I could have solved this if d'talked to peoplel, if id' asked my instructors. Most of it I knew was late, but ... fuck. I could have been graduating this may as a mediocre nursing student. I knew I was in trouble, but I went into the meeting thinking I'd just have to acknowledge my flaws. They set me back a year.

I have been getting ads, facebook ads, about onramp to nursing, hiring fair, letter of recomendation blah blah blah to three or four health systems. In the last nine years of my life no corporate entity has ever given a mild fart about me. It is so wonderful to be wanted.

and bam, right in the nuts. I'm set a year back

one of the other people who has been set back so far has gone to town on the school admins and because of her, I'm going .. or rather, my family, is going to save a bunch of money.

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soyersympa: be nice
posted 2018-01-16 03:54:39

as per title.

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posted 2018-01-14 21:52:01

#23 K.H.

He's gorgeous and has a great sense of humor, but of course he's graduating and moving out of state in May, so he isn't looking for anything serious. Dating in a small town full of undergrad students is hell. Anyone my age just graduates and immediately leaves this shitty town.

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posted 2018-01-10 01:26:22

I started working out. It was just time to do it. Joined a gym and everything. I'm eating well, just to notice I was stress eating. Regardless,slowly taking better care of myself when I realized today I'm getting a cold. Fml. No gym today.

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posted 2018-01-08 03:08:24

fresh start again, after two years since the last delete. 14 years here total. things are a lot better than 2003, probably don't qualify for 'hatelife' anymore, but still here anyway somehow.

supposedly the weekend after new year's is the best time to go on dating sites/apps since there are lots of new people online with new year's resolutions to start dating again. but i didn't try it.

still not sure i want to date anyone for a while. the time commitment seems like...a lot. and i'm still feeling awkward about the idea of dating women while also feeling pretty uninterested in the idea of dating men.

i've hung out with teal a few times since he came back to town. it was fine. we're friends. i was nervous before seeing him but then had actually no feelings about him beyond mild curiosity/amusement.

i really proved to myself that a long length of time knowing a person and spending time with them is not the key to a fulfilling romantic relationship. it's good for friendship though.

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The Dean:
posted 2018-01-06 19:10:49

1/2/18: a day that I will always remember fondly.

Welcome to this world Jade. You will always be my little angel.

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