house guest of indeterminable length
posted 2017-05-27 12:33:39

my relationship hopping friend, Y, is going to be staying with me for awhile. Y is coincidentally a really appropriate name because i am forever asking Y why she does this or that.

she's in love with being in love. she wants someone to have and to hold and to have the "where is this relationship going talk" on the first date. she only dates one person at a time; and is always all about that person. until she's not, and then there is another right around the corner.

it occurs to me that i dilute relationships because i am afraid of them getting too serious and too much for me to handle; and on the contrary she concentrates every relationship into immediate foreverness. so which is really diluted?

what is worse for your soul? too many surface relationships or too many fake relationships?

i guess that isn't fair, right? who am i to say what love is real and isn't. maybe some people are made to love in abundance and some people are made for one or two great loves in a lifetime.






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