posted 2021-07-16 19:20:19

Last week I was on vacation. My mom wanted us to go camping to the national park that we spent most of my childhood camping at. So we packed up and took my daughter up for the week. Except the day that we got there a massive bear rampaged through the campground to find food for its cubs at 10:30 in the morning and we decided to find another place to stay. Except every place was full, so we had to drive back home. Then my momĎs chemo meds hit her really hard, and her symptoms were so bad she wasnít even allowed to be outside because of how hot it was. Then a 6.0 earthquake hit the campsite where we were supposed to be staying, so we took the hint and decided that maybe last week wasnít supposed to be our vacation week at all. Except now, I had a week off from work that was the most stressful week probably all year, and then I had to turn around and go right back to work. And then my kids summer camp got shut down this week because of a Covid scare. And then my kid started vomiting last night. So you could say things are going well.

And my dadĎs dog has cancer. He was given one month to live, and this dog is really the only way my dad made it through his two divorces in a row. So itís really hard and I want to support him, but heís an insufferable asshole when he drinks and instead of trying to support him I ended up screaming at him and telling him that I thought he was a piece of shit and an asshole and then I blocked his phone number.

Basically, thereís all this shit thatís happening on the periphery of my life, and I mean itís not my life specifically, because itís not directly impacting me as an individual in my house, but it feels really fucking stressful to deal with. And I wanna just chill and not be responsible for like, doing the dishes or folding laundry when I feel like the world is collapsing around me. Itís all very weird and I feel like I just wanna take a nap.

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