posted 2025-01-16 13:51:42
I feel like an asshole.
My husband pointed out that sometimes I’m a dick and I dismiss his help in stressful situations because I think I can do it better. He’s pointed out in the past that sometimes I’m not nice to him when I get in a bad mood. Just snippy and dismissive and brushing him off.
And it’s this super uncomfortable realization that he is so stable and supportive that I assume he can’t possibly understand feelings of stress and that he doesn’t know how to help because he is “so perfect” in managing his own feelings and stress.
But he’s a person with feelings and struggles and I’m over here just scoffing at his attempts to help and it’s been hurting him for a while now and I just feel like a complete asshole.
Last night, and now today, I just feel ashamed of myself. I’m embarrassed that he’s been feeling like that when I get stressed and irritated and it just sucks.
Is there a version of internalized feminism? That I feel like a man couldn’t possibly understand feelings the way I do? Ugh. I just feel like shit today.