posted 2019-02-05 06:31:17

"adj. Acutely longing to return to an active state of travel. A sad or depressed state from not actively traveling"

I haven't traveled outside of this region since I began my current job in October. That is far too long to be stuck in this abhorrent place, especially during the depressing winter months.

This weekend, I will be going on a road trip no matter what. I don't care if we get another blizzard. I don't care if the roads are icier than a hockey rink. I don't care if another state of emergency is declared in this area. I need to get out of this hellish place for at least a weekend and am willing to risk my life in order to fulfill this need.

Due to the long distance, I'll also have to drive to my destination overnight and won't be getting any sleep along the way. If I fall asleep at the wheel and crash my vehicle, so be it. I don't care anymore. Being dead is better than being stuck here for another weekend.

I die a little inside everyday I have to go into the city to work. I can't recall the last time I had a good experience walking downtown before work and during my lunch break. Almost everyday, I have to walk on snowy, icy, slushy, or flooded sidewalks. Almost everyday, a vehicle nearly hits me as I'm legally crossing the street at a crosswalk. Almost everyday, I have to watch assholes stare me down and bitches scurry away from me as if I'm going to rape them in a crowded area. Almost everyday, bums ask me for change and then get mad when I tell them I don't have any. All of these little things add up and take its toll on my emotional health. This occasionally drives me to have public outbursts, which sometimes results in me getting stopped by the authorities, which only further erodes my sanity. When work is the best part of my day, I know my life is an absolute nightmare. Then again, I would be just as miserable being trapped in this house, as I found out last winter.

My brother actually started applying for work-from-home jobs yesterday. I hope he finds something good, so that I could follow in his footsteps and work remotely. That would be my dream. Even if I only made 1/2 or 1/4 of my current salary, I would gladly quit my job in order to work remotely -- either from my comfy bedroom or from a more agreeable part of the country or world. Location-dependence sucks!!!!!

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