posted 2019-05-11 23:46:54
Dated a man for 7 years, he told me I was beautiful nearly every day.
Dating a man for 6 months, he tells me he's not physically attracted to me.
Seems like I'm taking that latter to heart. I knew that the first was bullshitting. That was a lie I chose to believe. Every aspect of the pathetic relationship was a lie I chose to believe every day, every month, every year.
This one...threw me way off. Its hitting me way harder.
My radar is off the fucking chart. I was slacking, not paying attention when all the indications of "he's not into you" were there.
I don't know why we stayed together beyond the initial hookup, being there no physical connection. I just think it was to mutually soothe one another's depression and lonliness.
hm, he tells me he loves me so much and doesn't know what to do or think or blah blah fucking blah. All I hear is lie lie lie lie lie lie. But really he never lied. He never told me I was beautiful. In 6 months I never noticed as much as I do now.
And here we are.
And he's asleep at his place.
And I'm way drunk at mine.
Being a fucking baked potato apparently.
Missed this place.