Wasting my time in the...
posted 2024-12-14 19:29:17

...waiting line.


The heartbreak is real.

This Mercury Retrograde has been a motherfucker. It got me. And I fucked up a bit. But it will be okay. Eventually.

I just hate that people will be hurt. I suppose it can't be avoided. That's how relationships go. One way or another, someone is going to be in pain.

Everything is temporary. Either we part ways, or one of us dies. Either way - it doesn't last.

I've been getting the signs for the past year. Well, way beyond that actually. But recently it's all too clear. Well, it wasn't for a bit, but now it 100% is.

It's over.

I have to move on.

No matter what that looks like.

Five and a half years... and that's it.

I spent most of those years suffering, myself. It almost wrecked me. My nerves are frayed. I've been living in a state of functional freeze for the past six months at least. There's been no respite.

The signs are clear. This is what I have to do.

Plus, he said some things that can't be unsaid.

"People show you who they really are when they're angry".
Is that true? I am not sure, to be honest. Well, I mean, of course it is true to an extent. I think people show you who they truly are with any strong, shadow-y emotion. Of course, people also show you who they are with their light. Whether it's genuine or artificial. You see them.

God. It's time for me to go.

Confirmation.

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I'm sorry.Please forgive me.Thank you.I love you.I'm sorry.Please forgive me.Thank you.I love you.I'm sorry.Please forgive me.Thank you.I love you.I'm sorry.Please forgive me.Thank you.I love you.I'm sorry.Please forgive me.Thank you.I love you.I'm sorry.Please forgive me.Thank you.I love you.I'm sorry.Please forgive me.Thank you.I love you.I'm sorry.Please forgive me.Thank you.I love you.I'm sorry.Please forgive me.Thank you.I love you.I'm sorry.Please forgive me.Thank you.I love you.

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