posted 2018-09-13 02:47:54

decided i'll probably never stop being a little bit in love with that girl i dated, but i'll date and fall in love with other women too, and i'll just get to be full of love in a really lucky way.

i'm still fond of the first guy i fell in love with, brown, even though he was kind of a jerk and even though i haven't seen him in ten years despite having a lot of mutual close friends (because he still refuses to be in the same room as me).

so this girl gets a color name. she's going to be violet. there's already a girl named purple, who was my friend in high school who had a crush on me, unreciprocated. so they get to share a color family, which makes sense in a funny way.

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