posted 2021-04-28 08:08:01
Well, another person that I was dear to me passed away suddenly and unexpectedly. They were around my age and had a beautiful family. They were finally getting their life together and seemed that everything was going right. Then boom! Dead. Great, another person that I will never get too see ever again or let alone able to pay my last respects. Once again, I am not able to be there for them.
I still remember earlier in my youth, a close person passed away suddenly and I kept having nightmares. Every time someone passes away, I feel alone. My mortality always comes into question. The fear of not knowing what happens after we die always creeps up. I know I am not alone on this and if I was, religion wouldn't be popular.
The other issue is that I don't think it's real. I haven't been there for a long time, and none of it feels real. To me it seems that they are still alive living their normal life. I have been obsessing trying to find a news article about their passing but nothing. Oh well, another thing this freaking pandemic took away from me.