posted 2018-10-03 00:01:55

I went on a bender last week...due to PMS, I think. I pretty much followed through on all my addictions on Friday and wallowed in guilt the rest of the weekend. My friend, Parker, keeps bugging me to tell him what I did but I know heíll think the worst of me... I donít even want to say it out loud.

Iím nearly 40 years old and feel so immature... when will I get my life in order?

Today, I asked my doctor to prescribe me some happy pills. I havenít taken them in a year but after last weekend, the signs are there. I can feel myself sinking again...

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