posted 2019-01-19 21:14:34

So, I don't hate life per se, but I'm finding it rather difficult as of late.


I have this job that I've held for about 2 1/2 years. It's in an industry that is flooded with small and large companies alike. It's essentially support for sales.

I also have a CrAzY boss. This is a person that should LEGIT not manage people, but that's almost all they've ever done. They focus on all the wrong things. Think they can somehow control social media. Very out of touch with how the world really is sometimes. Makes a lot of promises, breaks a lot of promises. Has no work/life balance. No filter. It's hard to respect someone and the decisions they make when they tell you inappropriate things about themselves or seems to always be showing off.

Also, I work with sales people which can be god awful.

...But I stay, because I am in my own little department where people typically don't bother me. I also make waaaay more money than I ever would anywhere else.

It just feels like I have no time away from work. I get late calls into the evening. I get texts over the weekend. Sometimes work related, sometimes not. My last 3 times I was off with PTO I still managed to get contacted regarding work issues. Things that could have waited or could have been resolved in other manners.

Which is why I probably had this dream:


I dreamt that while I was on vacation someone caught an error I made and that because of it I was fired.

The person that caught the error is a real life person that loves proving people wrong. That always wants to be considered the best at everything.

The error was not an error I could make as it was not something I can do.

But, ya know dreams....they do what the want.


The person I referenced above is just a miserable person. I thought it was because of a bad situation, but they seem to always find the bad in everything. I want to help them to realize that the world isn't the problem, but their outlook on it. Evertime I attempt to do something like that it induces unnecessary moodiness or a fight I'd rather not get in to. So, I keep to myself quietly counting the days until I'm gone.


When will that be? ...probably years.




SO here I am again. It's cheaper than counseling. Hopefully this will do the trick. Looking forward to new and old alike.