posted 2017-12-01 21:10:07

I have come to the realization that no one is ever going to be there for me when I need help. I have been the rock for countless friends and family but when it comes down to my problems, no one gives a fuck. I have to be strong for myself. My friends only use me for what I can do for them... I feel like I impose on them if I complain about the shit in my day... so I just keep all of my realtionships detached. Itís friday night and Iím wallowing in self loathing but I have good reason; My life sucks right now...

Iím unemployed
Iím obese
My landlord wants to end my lease
My friends donít give a shit about me
My remaining family doesnít give a shit about me
Itís going to be the first Christmas without my heart dog

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