Old patterns are like zombies
posted 2021-05-04 17:52:22

Good news; I got a job paying $149kÖ

Bad news; my spending habits are horrendous Ö ordered a $35 crab Louie salad from Uber eats for lunch and $28 Tikka Masla from DoorDash for dinner Ö I also lost $800 with online slots today.

My dad used to say money burns a hole in my pocket. He is right.

Why donít do things that show I care about myself? I think Itís because I am in a constant existential crisis and I donít really think anything matters. A long time ago the idea of this being a simulation fucked me up and I havenít been the same since.

I donít think Iím going to get rid of this belief but I need to find a way around it so my life is better. Here are my goals for the next 6 months.

Goal 1 - Become frugal
Goal 2 - Stop gambling completely
Goal 3 - Get better at cleaning the house
Goal 4 - Get better at self care

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