weight weight dont tell me
posted 2021-06-06 10:30:58

I have just recently surpassed my highest weight ever. My whole weight journey is so depressing. Losing and gaining so much weight over the last 8 years. I can't seem to stick to Keto any more, even when i could in the past 4 months seemed to be a breaking point, then I would slowly gain all the weight lost back. I was able to keep myself under 260lbs until recently. This morning I weighed 263.6. It wouldnt be so bad if i saw some hope of that changing, right now it seems so unlikely, if anything its most likely to go up.

I decided to stop Prozac again, I can't remember why now, it made a lot of sense at the time. Today I feel ok. Yesterday was a decent day I didn't eat anything too excessive. I got some side work done and made some extra money.

I've made $8400 on side jobs this year so far, somewhere around an extra $1600 a month. I've also been able to almost break $50000 in investments and savings. I have no debt, I have a successful company I've help build with my step dad over the last 8 years or so. That company has savings as well but I don't count those towards my personal total.

I'm having a little girl, shes due october tenth. I go through different emotions, most of them very positive. Some of them steeped in fear and uncertainty. I guess it would be weird if I didnt have those ones. My medium term goal is to have $100,000 in investments (roth iras mostly) and $20k in high yield savings. I'm getting close to being halfway there. I started this basic journey, which has continuously evolved, a little after I met my soon to be wife, essentially I started three years ago. I had somewhere around $40k in debts, I've paid all of those off, and cut monthly expenses, kept logs of my money expenditures, and slowly built up to $47k saved.

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