posted 2019-05-17 15:33:36

Planning on my moving in with both my girlfriends in a couple months, after my job starts. This will be a big change.

I hope this goes well and doesn't make everyone miserable.

///there is a small stupid annoying part of me that's strongly influenced by my parents that wants to break up with them (sad) and go find some successful, ambitious woman with a great career and become an affluent power couple making power moves.

And then I remember how fucking miserable i've been when I tried doing shit like that before.

Going to Ohio this weekend for GrandOrca's memorial service with her surviving sisters. We lost the ashes for a couple of weeks, which I felt was fitting, sort of like a viking funeral, where they return to the sea, GrandOrca had just kind of merged into the hoard pile she'd spent her life accumulating. It was justice.

But we found her, so now parts of her are getting burried out with her parents in Ohio.

Never found the gold crowns in the ash....

I suggested mixing her with some sackcrete and making a garden sculpture. My mother, to my suprise and shock, has enthusiastically embraced this idea. Yikes.

J-88 is really looking forward to me getting her pregnant, as am I. Her new job is way closer to home and she's far less miserable. A.'s son is graduating, going into the Army, so she's an empty nester and going back to school and kind of worried she's just going to be me and J-88's babysitter / live in Ur-witch fertility cult goddess / sex slave.

And I'm like, hey, we're building the world we want to live in, one year at a time.

I'm trying to imagine being 56 years old, and then I remember I've eaten an entire pound of braunshweiger in the last 24 hours, and need to tighten up if that's going to happen.