I took the shot and missed
posted 2018-07-16 12:59:56

A dream job opened up for me a couple weeks back. I applied immediately. I tweaked my resume, website, references, and cover letter. I got a call less than a week later to schedule a phone interview. I did the phone interview and felt great about it. I received a call the very next day to schedule an in person. I printed all of my materials, prepped myself for days, wore my freshly dry cleaned suit and went to the in person interview. I felt great about it. We talked for over an hour about all aspects of the job, my work history and how I have many, many transferable skills that would be a great fit. We connected a professional level through shared colleges and clients. I left the interview feeling great and 100% expecting to be brought back for the final round of interviews. I knew after not hearing from them for 3 days I was not getting brought back. I followed up directly with the hiring VP....they were radio silent where in the past had been responsive. Sure enough on day 4 I got an automated email from their HR department that I was officially out. That fucking hurts dude.

Look...I am a realist. I know the competition for this gig would be stiff...it's that good of a job. So I didn't 100% expect to get it. But it still hurts as I saw so many things go away all at once when I got rejected.

The company is now 100% available to me as a potential employer. I highly doubt the VP that interviewed me would ever consider me for another position after rejecting me for one I am was incredibly well qualified for. This really stings because this company is one I admire greatly and have always dreamed about working for.

The position was the most qualified for a job I have ever been interviewed for. Talk about a shot to your ego.

The increase in salary would have been substantial enough to ease the financial burden my fiance and I have been under the last few months. It wouldn't be so drastic as to change our lifestyles....but we could have used the additional money to start to climb our way out debt and move forward in life.

Yup. Seeing all of those things go away really really hurt. Honestly...I cried a little bit. What did I do wrong? What happened? I must have severely fucked things up to not even warrant a second interview. My heart is broken.




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