posted 2018-08-04 14:39:43

Your not suppose to feel like this!

Your suppose to feel loved. Your suppose to feel wanted. Your suppose to feel needed. Your suppose to feel like you matter. Your suppose to feel like your the only one!

So how come I don't feel it. Feel it in the beginning then you see and hear things that make you doubt it all. What if you've been feeling it from all of them. Is it me? Only me? Maybe I'm the problem? Could I be that f**ked as a person? Was I never meant to feel that type of love?

I must be that bad of a person. A person that can't keep them only focused on me. To make them want to wonder. Make them lose that love. To help them understand.

I gotta be that bad of person...I gotta be.

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